Today I feel as though I have reached a small but important personal milestones, it may not seem that big to you, but it sure as hell does for me!
Due to my panic attacks or sometimes social anxiety, I don’t often go to new places, events or new shops alone. I feel as though people are looking at me and judging me at times, this then leads to nervousness, which leads to anxiety and then sometimes to a panic attack. This is usually lessened if I go with a friend or have my lil sis with me, who totally understands my craziness!! Anyway, on to the milestone…. the other day I was doing my daily Internet run (visiting my fave Blogs, a bit of Twitter, Instagram and then some Facebook) when I headed over to the Facebook page of Hello Owl (you can find her blog here which I visit often) and saw a photo of her in a lovely cardi which she pointed out was from Mix Apparel. I immediately googled said Mix to see what stuff they had, it was then I realised it was the Coles clothing brand. Wooo, hold up, I couldn’t shop there, what if someone saw me, what would they think? Seriously? Buying clothes at Coles?
After a few tweets to Dani from Hello Owl (who I don’t even know in real life, just from her Blog), she insisted the stuff there is awesome and I must look (she’s pretty fashionable, or so I think – and who I now owe a thankyou too). So today, I took a deep breath, started my walk through the shopping centre towards Coles. Nervousness struck, so I dashed into another shop first and bought a pair of jeans (which that is a WHOLE other post!). But then I made my way into Coles, the clothes racks are at the front, right there for everyone to see, see ME that is! I had a quick look around (at the clothes and the people who were there too), and yes they had some great stuff. I grabbed a top and two cardi’s kinda wrapped them into a ball and made my way to the register.
Although I was still slightly hiding the fact I was shopping there, I managed to do it without having a panic attack!! Best of all though, I got home, tried them on (because you can’t in a supermarket), they fit and they look great! I will definatelty be shopping there again, I don’t care who sees me and I sure as hell will tell people where I got my new purchases from if they ask!
I’m starting to see more benefits to this Blogging community than meets the eye!