I’ve re-written this post a couple of times, taken out sentences, added in different ones, then deleted the whole thing and started from scratch today. I didn’t want this post to come across negatively, at the time when I originally wrote the post (the deleted one) I guess I was in a negative mindset. But now that things have calmed and I’m feeling level-headed, I’m re-writing the post in a way that seems more fitting.
I have never been extremely body confident, but was happy with my body and the way I looked before I had Phoebe. I’ve never really been one for exercising or playing team sports either. When I fell pregnant with Phoebe, I put on 15 kilos and since the day I had her, I’ve only lost 5 kilos (funny that that was probably how much she weighed, whoops!). I have many stretch marks to tell the tale of her being in my belly, I like to call them ‘kick marks’ though and they honestly don’t bother me one little bit (I was never a bikini wearer in the first place). I was left too with LOTS of excess skin, the type that my Doctor told me could never be toned through exercise, only fixed by surgery. But I hide it well with my clothes choices, no one notices, and when I have shown friends, needless to say, they were a little shocked.
About six months ago, I became unhappy with my body and I’ll stress I wasn’t necessarily unhappy with my weight, more the way I felt. And so I started to move my body! I slowly (with the help of some friends) built up my walking to spurts of jogging. I borrowed a treadmill and started jogging even further. I actually did start to enjoy it (previously I lacked motivation and drive). I’m unlucky in the fact though that I can’t change my diet too much, I have this unusual problemo with texture which doesn’t allow me to eat fruit, salad and some veggies (although I’m getting better at having them within other foods). And then I fell pregnant, I got tired (like we all do) and I was too exhausted some nights to even manage with all the housework let alone going for a walk/jog. Now my pelvis is playing up too, so I’m in a spot of bother.
This image is from my Pinterest Board ‘Move it’ – I cannot find the original source to give credit where credit is due 😦
So, I’m scared, I know I shouldn’t be, but I was already unhappy with my body…..I’m completely happy at the moment though, I’m pregnant and loving the little home I am creating. But I’m wondering what state my body will be left in after Bubba V arrives? I’m not feeling at all pressured by celebrities and their bounce back bodies (although I sometimes do have the urge to slap them), they obviously worked hard, really really hard. So, my question to you is, am I alone in the way I’m feeling? How did you or are you trying to feel better about your body after children?